Monday, January 4, 2010

Drunken Writer & a Bleeding Romeo!


story opens with a guy!
he is studying in 10th!
well abt the guy! frm a middle class family! ; wel a bit too fat! avg looking!
wel he is well only knwn love thourgh his eyes
neva had any grl loved him!
he wanted to !bt he was too scared!
to ask any1 ! well
thought he was ugly ! to an extent he was!
well so
wen the 10th school days started ; he strted to go to tutions @ smeplace
nw ther used to cme a grl
lisa,
well she was younger than him! vry slim pretty smart! & beautiful in every way!
well' he liked he frm the start! well 4 obvious reason belived she was way out of his league!
well !! time is deceptive; & arises many illusions in ones mind
well , they met in tution class! she studying scince , he doing maths
well
during the classes he used to peek @ her, look @ her! wat elegance, he used to tink!
& suddenly his eyes luked @ her eyes!!
saw her eyes in his!
he smiled! so did she
well tat smile was a start to a beautiful frndshp !
well
it goes like tis
wen her tution end early she used to go down stairs! ! used to take out the lace of her shoes, untie her ribbon & tie it again! then even then if he didint cme slowly walk kicking the biggest of rocks over there!
well it was vry obvious 4 vry one bt him! well he was too insecured! thought tat neva could any1 love him!
so his frnds did smeting!
they told him, tat she loved him! & told her tat he loved her!!
well the obvious didnt happen! time was deceptive to them! was illusionary to them, tat second!
then she neva used to wait 4 him to cme down so tat they can walk together!
neva did she toook her lace out enva did she untie her ribbon!
well
the boy was too drunk in the lov tat he couldnt let go!;
@lest as a frnd! bt he knw nothings gonna make any diff!
so one day he w8ting outside to get her on the way!
well wen she saw him! she turned!
well haert broken over taken by tears; over taken by disappointed !
he went to her! & looked in her eyes & said ! u thought am such a fool! ; i liked u ! y the hell did u belive wat others said! all i needed was ur frndship
if u dont want tat!, jst leave me !I wil go off!
he turned & waked!
well !then the grl said well they were lying abt me too!
& smiled
well the relation grew thicker
well suddenly one day he saw adream
in his dream he saw her smiling!
& her hands in another!
he couldnt see tat!
he knew he couldnt hve her! well time is deceptive!1
he jst disapeared frm theor ! neva did he go baclk to tat place
well! he could jst handle the pain of seeing her in another!
welll years passed
the boy grows
gets to 12th! well nw he aint tat fat! well he is kinda gud luking! fit!
& he still remebers her
so he jst gives her a call!!
half minded! he thought she would neva remeber! hw can she it has been years! its his 1st call she wil nt!
so hw thought! well time is deceptive!
wen the ph rang!; she picked the call
he said hello! & she said hi
well! he asked do u knw me!
she said ofcousre! i do!
u do!? hw cme u recognised my voice!? well yeah & i saw ur no. in ph too!
he thought ! wow she remeber my voice! she remeber my ph no!? by heart!?
well time is deceptive!
it brought them together! it split them! then it again brings them close
i hve seen fire i hve seen rain i hve seen lonely times wen there was no frnd! bt i always thought i wil see u again!
so was boys heart!
the calls b/w them grew longers! distance & separation shoter!
a call 2 twice a week, a call every day!, a call 12 hrs
they neva talked 4 mre than one hr!! bt they neva let one hr pass without talking to each other!!!
u fill up senses like a rain in the forest! like mountains in spring time!!, like the storm in the desert, like a sleepy blue ocean!, so was there love b/w each other
so the obvios happened! they knew they were in love! bt none proposed!
well one day , he said
my mom was talking abt my brothers marriage & she said all she want s to see his marriage & die
the biy said so wat abt my marriage!?>
mom said then wat wil tat grl who u talk to every min do!
well the boy narrated the story tp the grl!
she smiled
giggled
well then he joked! well so wen shld i bring my mom to ur place!
so tat she can see u!
she giggled!
indu_lekha8907: thts sounds like an achayan style
& said well as sooon as u can !u knw lotta guys r behind me
well afetr she said tat! he gt vry serious! the was an unbroken silence! the air froze, & he asked lisa am serious! can i bring u a wedding ring!! wil u marry me
she skipped a breathe !!
said y did u take so much time to ask!
love sweet love!
well time is deceptive!
lisa!, nw the story goes frm her side
am in love with him!
she felt like she was like a feather! floating! through the gentle freeze!!
strange forieng feeling, i wil neva knw wats in u deep! does anyone knw hw it feels to love
she was so happy!
well, time is vry deceptive
ph calls grew shrter!
love is there
bt.......
does he really love me, she thought..?
in the silence, came a thuder in their relation; their 1st fight!'
reason silliest of matters
he slamed the ph ! she heart broken, cried
cried
cried
y does he nt love me lke before'
romeo is bleeding ! u cant see his blood ! its nothing bt its feelings !
he criede too bt she neva saw!
its was nt any1s fault!
time is deceptive
like an angel he came to her life an angel he was to her!; he took her frm her tears to place of joy!
the new angel asked 4 her hand'
she yet resisted! said my heart belongs to him; who doesnt talk to me nw
angel said to her, he doesnt love u! i do!!
& she agreed!; bt the love 4 him neva allowed him to break up!; so nw am with 2 guys an angel & jst the boy
nw story goes frm boys side
well he knw abt the angel!
he didnt want to ask she knew he knew bt; the long hrs of call waiting really gve him the idea
its raining since u left me, see i hve always been a fighter without u i jst give up
well i guess i aint gud anymre!, bt i wil love u! always!! and i wil b ether ever & again ! always
so was the boys heary
heart
he thought she wil cme back!! he belived it!
couldnt live with out her
wen he holds u close wen he pulls u nearA! i wish i was him & his wrds were mine!
to say i love u!
he was the boys mind
well she came back to him!
& happy was he
it had been long since they become a couple!
he joined a college!
gud days were!!gt mre bsy! phs grew shrter!
agian the grl fell another
time!
4 the same angel
well !! the boy knew!
he asked her dont go away frm me i love u!
all 4 love!1
bt the angel had a grip on her which love slipped off!
a month passed afetr tis the grl came back!
which the guy really wanted! & he accepted her with open hearT! cried loved kissed
& she said she was sry 4 all the wrnd tings! she said she was wrng! the angel.... she confessed
a week passed! they wre in love\
deceptive time
angels name came to college! his frnd was talking abt angel wen the guy was there!
the guy jst stood up & said dare nt i see the angel; death shall cme to his beating heart!
partly intoxicated by anger partly by wine , angels frnd came to the guy & said..., ur true love is like a used tissue! keep her..,
3 yrs of love he has nt even touched her!
her love is 4 wat he lived
boken by wrds the guy calls up lisa, aks pls say wat happened b/w u & angel
she cried!
he knew
all tat shldnt hve happened!
has jst happened
bt the all fogiving all sacrifising love ! hw deep is ur love!!
love took the pain out! he neva even scolded her
bt the fire burned in him!! he jst wanted to see the angel! & she cried out to him tat angel tried to force her to do......,
the guy had nothing in his mind ! bt love 4 her & nw set to take the breate of the angel!
the angel fled out of the country!
lisa neva thought neva again the love wit him , "the guy" wrk out!! so she fond another!!!
raj, her old mate
later she realized even only he wanted to wipe his sweat with her!
she looked @ past time, the love she had 4 him the only guy who has only been there 4 her!
she confessed!! everyting to him..., even abt the raj!
bt tis was ahrd 4 the guy! hw can a guy 4gve his lover with another guy & yet even after tat 4giving tat! again wit another!'
u can ever change ur heart! u can neva change ur grief!
love & hate collide
without u! the heart stops inside!, with u it ripes apart!'
without u a nite wouldnt go!
its like a year in a sec!
wen love & hate collide!
he drank the sweet poison!
he again took her into his life,
she neva thought he deserved her bt smeting mre..., love & hate coillide
so she tried to find another! so atat he wil force himself to find another!!'
so she did!!
dont speak , dont tel me cox it hurt,i knw wat u tink, i knw its reason!! ur memories ride me off the raiL! with my head my hand ! let me cry! said the boy!
& they split ways!
bleeding heart of a romeo!
well no1 knws!
the end!

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Need Of the Hour (APJ)

I have three visions for India. In 3000 years of our history people from all over the world have come and invaded us, captured our lands, conquered our minds. From Alexander onwards. The Greeks, the Turks, the Moguls, the Portuguese, the British, the French, the Dutch, all of them came and looted us, took over what was ours. Yet we have not done this to any other nation. We have not conquered anyone. We have not grabbed their land, their culture, their history and tried to enforce our way of life on them. Why? Because we respect the freedom of others. That is why my first vision is that of FREEDOM. I believe that India got its first vision of this in 1857, when we started the war of independence. It is this freedom that we must protect and nurture and build on. If we are not free, no one will respect us.

My second vision for India is DEVELOPMENT. For fifty years we have been a developing nation. It is time we see ourselves as a developed nation. We are among top 5 nations of the world in terms of GDP. We have 10 percent growth rate in most areas. Our poverty levels are falling. Our achievements are being globally recognized today. Yet we lack the self-confidence to see ourselves as a developed nation, self-reliant and self-assured. Isn't this incorrect?

I have a THIRD vision. India must stand up to the world. Because I believe that unless India stands up to the world, no one will respect us. Only strength respects strength. We must be strong not only as a military power but also as an economic power.

Thursday, December 31, 2009

An Unequal Perfect World

A world perfected by equality, freedom is nothing but a mere illusion

Imagine the world population is reduced to 5 people.,

Imagine these 5 have been given equal amt of resources,

& if we let them be, the more competitive will start owning the resource of the less competitive.

So what can be really done to maintain the equality between the 5?

We can tax the more efficient, we can take reward of his extra effort & distribute it among others & thus again maintaining equality

Does such an equality seems to be a fair one. if u assume it to be fair, are we not discouraging his extra effort

And are we not creating a group of people who gets more & more inefficient as days move..,

If what ever we do, in whatever way is only result in equality between all, why do anything at all...

We urge top be better , to be better than the other,

And yet we preach about being equal…,

“A mere illusion, of a happy state & stationary state which is never going to happen ”

When we look forward for an equal world, we just create a world of dullness & lifelessness...,

We preach about an equal society, which no one ever wants to happen..,

Just a hypothetical illusionary vision, which gives hope for the have not , so that they can also once dream to be with the haves

Just look into oneself, what do we want to be..,

We want top be the best, the better one when compared to another..,

Everyone in the world wants to be the best.., a human race, meant to compete for survival,

Why do we even provide the idea of illusionary equality..,

Some things in the world, probably most things in the world are those things which we can’t define to the word, its all relative..,

Freedom is such a thing,

What happens to a person who is doesn’t have freedom..,

I assume a person without freedom is miserable..,

What is the misery, what is the cause for misery..,

Can we ever feel miserable about things we have ever not experienced or ever not known not seen...,

For a person who has been born & brought up in a jail, who has no knowledge about a world outside is a free man even inside a jail.

Misery is a self imposed pain.., because of the desire to have or to do something

A person born is born free..,

Then we deprive them of the freedom, by preaching them about a world , a system they only wish would be there..,

So we take a free man, put his mind in prison, then his reality turns into a prison, then we argue to make himself free

A world of Scheznoperiacs

If one is looking towards a perfect world, the best way to create one is by what Darwin propounded

"Survival of the fittest"

Competition is eminent in a world were every things is limited,

& only way in which we can make sure one can make the best use of these resources are only by the means of competition

The closest thing can account for perfection in this world are imperfections which makes this world

The beautiful place we live in..,

A world of beautiful extremes,

A world of extreme hate & a world of extreme love,

A world which had both Gandhi & Hitler in it..,

A beautiful perfect world of imperfections

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

U R my destiny!!!

I had her wit me,

All the time,

Y didn’t see her, her feelings

the feelings of love, passion & friendship.


I asked her to be my best frnd,

Though i wanted more!!!

i kept my silence..

with a fear, to lose my dear!!

But tat dear of mine,

Wanted same from mine..

to be wit her, as a frnd & more

And thought,

she couldn’t have me.

but had me in her palms!!!


So i thought i couldn’t have her,

So she thought she couldn’t have me,


And once i asked her to choose,

not me but the other!!!

She said, "Easy for u to say!!!"

She burst into tears .


For each of her tears,

showed her love...

the love for me in her!!!

Now to be wit her,

was my destiny!!!

and fulfill it, will be my aim!!!

Monday, July 23, 2007

About me!!!

""FEAR OF THE LORD IS THE BEGINNING OF WISDOM''.IN ALL YOUR WAYS ACKNOWLEDGE HIM AND HE SHALL DIRECT YOUR PATHS""
about me ::::
one of the 1st principle in my life is~
Far better is it to dare mighty things, to win glorious triumphs, even though checkered by failure...than to rank with those poor spirits who neither enjoy much nor suffer much, because they live in a gray twilight that knows not victory nor defeat
GO ON DARE TO DO BIG THINGS!!!

ABOUT ME!!!

Am ASHWIN M KOSHY, im cool person to hang out with!! .i like traveling,hiking,talking, football,etc .. im trying to be & live like a true chrsitain.i love lots of stuff especially chating hanging with my best budiies.
I live in tvm….am 20 yrs old… I did my schooling in bhavans…. That is bharatiya vidya bhavan>>>
Oh yeah … am a commerce student… and am now studying in mar ivanious for ba eco.…
Hmmm………ok……
I love to have lots of pets….i even used to have owls & eagles……
Now I have 2 dogs blackly & brownie…
& lot of fishes…


Lot inTo Photography these days;
u can also finn me in deviant art or flickr !!

Totally on the look out 4 ppl with the same taste 4 photography

well rest r dreams>>...,
My dream was to do some research and present a theory paper about earth, planets, etc…I do have some wacky theory about the formation of planets, one of the possible ways in which a black hole can end up in being a planet!!!, etc ……….which i will be telling you people very soon….
i love to talk!!! almost abt any topic!!!especially abt chirstanity>>>
scientific theories>>> social issues>>economics!!! etc
and so tats me!!!
Hope we can be can be cool frnDS

& for all my friends who lost my no!!
here it is!!
9995380065!!
Hey for u ppl who dont knw me!!! vist tis!!
http://kevan.org/johari?view=ashwin+m+koshy

And if u knw me for long then!! go visit tis
http://kevan.org/johari?name=ashwin+m+koshy

age:

20

birthday:

May 7